Saturday, September 26, 2009

First Time

I am not a virgin to blogging, but i am letting go and opening myself up for the First Time in a long time. Things are definitely not easy. Number one, never though i would be a single mom..yep..two little ones running around driving me insane :) sometimes....but i can not imagine my life with out them. They are the reason i fight so hard, and work so hard. MY WORLD...my ex, their father..i love dearly, he will always hold a piece of me..i still can not fully let go of all we had..10 long years of off and on...i wish things could have been different..wish he could have grown up and been the man i needed him to be. My kids are lucky though..he is a good dad, at least he tries to be what they need. My son...6..rambunctious and intelligent, my daughter 18 months, sweet and becoming a lil lady already. Love them more than anything on this earth..right now im trying to keep my sanity and learn that life goes on. Im hurting, i miss him...still love him..but im good. i know that with or with him i will survive..i have to..my kids need me to..